lives more in daydreams than in reality?

Eating breakfast, riding the bus (even driving, when I do), at work, with friends, showering, cleaning, working out- no matter what I do my mind is rarely focused on the task at hand. It’s always off in it’s own world of living in NYC, hanging out with Peks, and generally just leading the awesome life I hope to one day live.

I mean, why would I want to focus on the things at hand? Probation, court ordered AA meetings, community service, evaluations. Then add in the regular routine business of work, school, family and friends. Things in my world right now just don’t interest me anymore. It’s the same old world, day after day. And my reality, it’s just plain boring. Not to mention we all know reality sucks.

So I prefer to live my life in dreams of my future, in hopes of one day getting there. It sure makes me work harder now, having the mindset that I’m working towards that better life I’m always imagining. Sometimes my daydreams go off in a crazy twisted fantasy world that I wouldn’t even have the gall to think would come true (like making a youtube video with Justin Bieber in Finland-I don’t even like JB). But I just think it’s fun to escape the mundane monotony of everyday life for a while.