For the same of this story, I’m using real names. But there are two matt’s, so I’m switching the ‘old’ matt to MS, and the ‘new’ matt to MW. Hell, I’m just gonna use initals for everyone.

Sooo way back in September, I met MS at the zombie walk, proceeded to have a ‘thing’ with him. That’s kind of a theme of this story, I never really have a relationship with a guy, or date them, we just are ‘together.’ Anyways, I’m not even really sure what triggered it, but I just didn’t feel it anymore, so I told him. He wasn’t too happy with me, end ‘thing’ and all communication between the two of us.

Come December I meet SA, stars player, from New York, good looking dude, funny. We got together and had a very different ‘thing.’ I kinda always knew he was just using me but went along with it anyway. I mean, it was kinda cool being with a stars player and he had a really really nice body so…yeah. Anyways, we ended up both wanting different things: me- a relationship, and him-basically friends with benefits (so as to have less attachment, he said.) Anyways, Valentines day rolls around- end this ‘thing.’ SA becomes super douche, I never want to talk to him again, but still want him. Really very badly.

Now around the end of February/ beginning of March, I went to a party with this girl from work in the bottoms, and met MW. We hit it off that night, but left with no number exchange. I creeped and found him on facebook, and then forgot about him until 2 or 3 days later he chatted me. If what he said hadn’t been so clever, I never would have even responded. But that’s just the thing, I finally found someone who’s witty and can keep me on my toes. Not to mention he’s super smart, cute, plays hockey, and just about everything about him is perfect. And we had great talks, about anything and everything. He asked all these questions to get to know me better, and remembered everything I told him. So I thought maybe this one could work out. He wanted to take being in a relationship slow, since he just got out of a 4 year relationship 4 months ago, which i completely understand. And we used to hang out and text all the time. I mean other stuff too, ya know. But all of a sudden he hasn’t really been talking to me. So yesterday morning I decide I’m not gonna talk to him and see how long it takes for him to remember me….still hasn’t. Two days later. Kinda worrying, right?

IN THE MEANTIME, I’ve talked to both MS and SA and uh, well, miss them. And MS was not subtle about his intentions to get me back. SA seemed like he could have cared less, but then again that was always him. So now I’m sitting here trying to decide if I really finally am over SA? Should I take MS up on his offer? Is MW just trying tp cut me loose? Or is he…idk theres not really an excuse for that one. And also, there are two other guys who are making it very clear that they would love a chance to hang out, and by hang out I mean both have offered to be so kind as to let me spend the night at their place so I don’t have to go back home late. How kind.

Humpf, boys and life can just be so confusing sometimes. I don”t get it, not at all.